The pause from hell!

Whiney, whiney me!!
Let's start at the beginning - Yesterday, was a good day!! Felt good, did the old kettlebell ladder, increased the weight from 12kg to 16 kg, beat my last time, yee haw!! Excellent - Saw obvious improvement, haven't seen that in a while, I feel like I'm kickin' it into high gear again. Find out Bench Press is today, double yippeee - I love BP!!!
Here's the thing, everyone has the "thing" they do best - Patty rocks her pull ups, Cheri kicks butt on the deadlifts, and I always felt the Bench Press was mine!.........until tonight!

I really want to hit 150 on BP - not sure why - but I do. So, tonight, I go in thinking "tonight's the night - I'm gonna do it!!" I was feeling pretty good the first two rounds....125, no prob, 135, good.....then the pause. The evil, evil pause.
If you're going to compete or think about competing in the future, we all need to practice "the pause". Well, Patty has decided, and is being rather bossy about the fact that we are all going to compete in a Powerlifting meet next year. That means we all have to practice"the pause". The pause is that moment that lasts a billion years, the bar at a dead stop on your chest - then lift again, well, who knew that while that silly bar was sitting there it was eating 12 big macs and 3 gallons of ice cream?? That sucker gained a good 25 lbs in a mere second!! So, the only way I could successfully do 3 of these was to drop the weight down to 115. I'll just say - dropping 25lbs, and not in a good way, kinda sucks. Big ego blow!! So, rather than increasing my max by 10 lbs, I drop 25 lbs, all because of the pause. Hence my momentary bitterness right now! Could I have done more?? Perhaps...hard to say, the freakin' pause threw me off completely.
Yeah, yeah, but the form..blah blah.....I think I would be less whiney, if I dropped 25 lbs off a 180 BP!!